back to school

Ten more days until I start school. This is a very stressful time for me. It might even be more stressful than the madness of the first few weeks of school. I'm shy. & starting at a new school. To say that I am nervous would be an understatement. Anxious, restless, and terrified are much better adjectives. However pragmatic everyone thinks I am, it's not entirely true. Under all of that, I am a jumbled mess of nerves and beginning school just amplifies that.

To counteract it and keep myself calm, I'm trying to focus on facts. Fact: I got my class schedule and it all works out. Fact: I got some new clothes for school. Fact: It is terribly unlikely that everyone will hate me and if worst comes to worst, at least I'm pretty comfortable being left alone. So maybe the last one isn't a good fact to focus on. Maybe I'll just stick to the first two.

First semester schedule:
Mythology
AP Calculus AB
AP Literature & Composition
MultiMedia Design
Chemistry
German 1
Journalism
AP US History

My new school wardrobe:
5 pairs of skinny jeans from JC Penney
6 t-shirts from JC Penney
2 Wet Seal dresses
4 Old Navy cardigans
2 new pairs of Converse, 2 pairs that are new to me
1 very nice Dakine backpack

And then there's my to-do list & schedule for before school starts:
Doctor's appointment
Hair appointment
Find out bus schedule
Read a book--cover to cover
Buy binders
Fill journal so I can start writing in the new one
Laundry
Clean bedroom

Focusing on all of these lists helps keep me calm--as long as I accomplish pretty much everything. When I don't, I just start to stress about what I haven't done. Perhaps I should stop writing this post and go accomplish something?